Oh well, back to blogging.
Reminiscing my past, decided to venture back, into memory lane.

Oh the glitter, the laughter, the jubilant hullabaloo & antics.
I miss them ever so much.
Why didn't I treasure my secondary school friends?
And apparently now, I'm doing the same, to my AC friends.

It's just me and my, egoistic mentality.
Somehow or rather, I'll always find ACSians superficial.
Why?
I can never stop asking why?

I know I'm being totally full of myself, its so obvious, that it's literally radiating from me.
Pessimistic thoughts constantly wreck my mind.
Can't do well in anything... Swim, Lifeguards, Studies.
Losing friends (Losing touch / Keeping in-touch. heh!, same thing)

I thought I completely managed to forget you (Yes you, the one I got the teddy bear for from Southampton, United Kingdom) PS: I totally regret giving it to you. It was meant for someone I could love, someone I thought I could count on (The breaking up part was partially my fault though)
Before I gave it to you, I had a hard time deciding who to give it to. Glistening, deep, obsidian black eyes. Soft, amber fur. And, a heart, a really really big heart.
For the girl I had a crush on for 3years, or for the guy who made my first 2months of ACJC really special...

Oh well. Now I'm single again (Totally deserve it). My crushes, I personally know (it's a gut feeling) won't turn into reality.

Regarding Academics...
Why did I get 7 points for O Level? Why?
I'm really undeserving of it. I'm not, putting in my best effort to study.
argh.... everything is really, really distracting...

My mind is in such a whirl right now... Thoughts (Pain, Regret, Horny stuff)...

I promised myself I give it my all. But now, I know, that is going to eventually, be broken.

Labels: Bleeding soul. Crying Heart, Stressed Out

even after the exams.
I'm stressed.
I have duties to commit to.
I'm STRESSED OUT.
SC PUBLICITY TALk.
BAND ALMOST EVERDAY.
ISTANA,SYF,PIECES.
AHHHH,MY HAIR IS GONNA FALL OUT 1 DAY.
I feel like crying again. Thoughs of death filled my mind

Labels: Stressed Out

BIGGEST MISTAKE MADE TODAY.
I made mistakes in maths.
Lost about 9 marks worth of questions.
Very sad now...
HAIZ!!! WHY ME??
btw,brands chicken essence dun work.
You know what to do,I dun have to tell you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYccgpf1YGw
Watch this

Labels: Pics And Vids, Stressed Out

Neglected my bloggie for quite awhile...
I love KALEIDOSCOPE!!!!
Stressed stressed stressed.
Past few days has been like that
Stressed
Stressed
Homework day + stressed
YAY BRAND NEW HANDPHONE
Stressed
Stressed
HOMEWORK DAY AGAIN!!! awww ( stressed )
Argh,wanna pull all my hair out,den no nid cut hair hahahahaha
So waste money lor cut hair, my hair grows god dam fast.
2 weeks i cut short fringe and straight side burn, it touches my eyebrow and ear ><
I wan go for operation pluck my hair roots out.
Or at least transplant them to sumone who really wants hair.

Labels: Stressed Out

Stressed out day 6.
Not stressed liao hehe xD.
Had a very long good talk with seemin,chinleng,crystal.
Deciding on what colour font shuld be the class T shirt.

We decided orange words black background or baby blue for guys and baby pink for gals on black background..


German guy 1st day arrive.
He looks quite ok,better than my bro,hahahaha. xD lol.
Den we show him around da house,den we bring him go Gek Poh eat local food.
He say thai chicken hot,my whole family say hot,when I eat it,I only taste lemon =.=
NOT EVEN SPICY,rip off....
haha,but the other foods were nice.
He loved the Fried rice with Salted fish and the hotplate Beancurd.
O_O
His appetite big ( he not fat,very slim )
O_O AMAZING! lol

Labels: Belgium Visit, Stressed Out

Stressed out -day 3.
Well,actually,today I not emo liao.
I feel much betta. xD
Stupid cut on my wrist =.=
Bend my wrist that time have the feeling of harden crusty blood tearing apart.
Very itchy and irritating feeling.
>< . I wish I was an Atlantian,rumoured to heal wounds quick and live x10 longer than man.

Haha,tks to all ur positive comments.
Last night I dreamt about sumthing,but it is black and white =.= so dull....
=.=...
Life is a surprise,a chance for hope,and also misery.
Can't stand it,but who cares?
I have approx 66 more years to live,hopes to die earlier than that.
Hopefully kena car accident,hehehehe.
Or MRT train run over my body and chop me into 3 pieces.
=P den my spirit hunt Boon Lay station.
Imagine the brown rusty and silver shiny double rail tracks stained with blood.
xD

Den today morning,I prepare for English Project.
I found alot of Baby Pictures,reminds me of my past =D
Now I know why I have black and white dreams.
9/1/1994. 5days old,( in the picture) I was looking at spinning black and white pictures =.=
Dots.....
dat was the only thing i can remember till today.
Before I saw the picture,i could still remember that.

Labels: Stressed Out

Stressedful - day 2 of stressing out.
Went bonkers.
Slept late , VERY LATE last night,and woke up,VERY EARLY.

PPL come my house paint the whole building,now my garden messy.
The plants everywhere like sum shallow jungle.

Found 1 BBQ video in my cam. ( 9 - 10th june BBQ pt 2H )
It is about waking up on the 2nd day.
Quite lame,BUT WHO CARES???.
xD

Seah Cheng showing how Crystal ( the gal dat sleept on his right hand side) elbow him at night.
Chin Leng laughing towards it.
See Min juz woke up.
Yi Chang walkin around.
Me sit beside the computer filming crap.
And this video happens to be that crap.

Labels: Pics And Vids, Stressed Out

Life just got worse for me.
Stressed life as SC.
Stressed Westwoodian.
Stressed sec2 SL.
and further more,my section kena problems her parent's decisions.
I respect their decisions as they know what is best for her,not me.

Oh well,looks like now i nid solo mono oh mono take care sec-1s till i pass out in year 2010.
haiz, i've decided to transfer schools after 2008 over.
The stress to much.
When i transfer,i can start a new,less stressful,more concentrated life...
I cannot stand it anymore,I wannna stab myself.
I'm too tired, too hurt to go to sleep.

I also have relationship troubles in the school.
I cannot tell the gal i like that i like her.
Lata she very awkward den avoid me ( like my p4 classmate ).
Haiz,the whole class is lucky except me.

Once i leave this school,i wun feel so lonely anymore.
I am ill-treated and tormented by my classmates.
I cannot take it anymore.
The only true ppl to me are Koh Siong,Wei Yang,Ji Yu,Xun Qiang,Ridhwan and dats all

SC treats me as a unfun person with no sense of humour. =.=
I feel left out from the rest of the class.
There is no sense of camaraderie ( a sense of belonging ) between me and them...
God,help me please.

I want to throw a coin into the river,make a wish,and when i wake up,it will come true.
I wish i could go back to when i was born,and i wish i could alter time into my family had not enough money to pay for my life and death surgery and i died.
Then all these would'nt happen.

I know I'm being an emo maniac,but it is the only way to escape my nightmares.
I'm a self-centered ( self-fish ), ego-centric ( self-fish) and superficial ( shallow attitude ).
with no hope in a future career,job,relationship WHATEVER.
I'm a failure,stuntman cannot cos i dun parkour and dun risk life.
Vet cannot cos my bio grades unstable.
TV crew / actor cannot cos i camera shy.
everything cannot.
Please sum1,hire sum1 to come and kill me.
That sum1 wun go to jail,cos this is an evidence that i asked sum1 to kill me.
Pls come and find me in Jurong Area near Gek Poh shopping centre ( singapore )
to take my life and kill my misery,thank you brave killing muderous stranger.
I shall thank you for ending my miserable life.
I really feel like crying but i can't and bottle my feelings up....

Labels: Stressed Out

cLaSs: 2HipSteR.
CLASS: 3 MULTIPLY BY "I".
CLASS: 4 IMBA.
SCHOOL: WESTWOOD SECONDARY.
CLASS: 1SB1'11
SCHOOL: ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE

DOB 4th/JAN/1994.

Click Here If U Hate me .
DO NOT CLICK THIS!