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Sunday, September 4, 2011
Oh well, back to blogging.
Reminiscing my past, decided to venture back, into memory lane.
Oh the glitter, the laughter, the jubilant hullabaloo & antics.
I miss them ever so much.
Why didn't I treasure my secondary school friends?
And apparently now, I'm doing the same, to my AC friends.
It's just me and my, egoistic mentality.
Somehow or rather, I'll always find ACSians superficial.
Why?
I can never stop asking why?
I know I'm being totally full of myself, its so obvious, that it's literally radiating from me.
Pessimistic thoughts constantly wreck my mind.
Can't do well in anything... Swim, Lifeguards, Studies.
Losing friends (Losing touch / Keeping in-touch. heh!, same thing)
I thought I completely managed to forget you (Yes you, the one I got the teddy bear for from Southampton, United Kingdom) PS: I totally regret giving it to you. It was meant for someone I could love, someone I thought I could count on (The breaking up part was partially my fault though)
Before I gave it to you, I had a hard time deciding who to give it to. Glistening, deep, obsidian black eyes. Soft, amber fur. And, a heart, a really really big heart.
For the girl I had a crush on for 3years, or for the guy who made my first 2months of ACJC really special...
Oh well. Now I'm single again (Totally deserve it). My crushes, I personally know (it's a gut feeling) won't turn into reality.
Regarding Academics...
Why did I get 7 points for O Level? Why?
I'm really undeserving of it. I'm not, putting in my best effort to study.
argh.... everything is really, really distracting...
My mind is in such a whirl right now... Thoughts (Pain, Regret, Horny stuff)...
I promised myself I give it my all. But now, I know, that is going to eventually, be broken.
Labels: Bleeding soul. Crying Heart, Stressed Out
