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Friday, June 27, 2008
Life just got worse for me.
Stressed life as SC.
Stressed Westwoodian.
Stressed sec2 SL.
and further more,my section kena problems her parent's decisions.
I respect their decisions as they know what is best for her,not me.
Oh well,looks like now i nid solo mono oh mono take care sec-1s till i pass out in year 2010.
haiz, i've decided to transfer schools after 2008 over.
The stress to much.
When i transfer,i can start a new,less stressful,more concentrated life...
I cannot stand it anymore,I wannna stab myself.
I'm too tired, too hurt to go to sleep.
I also have relationship troubles in the school.
I cannot tell the gal i like that i like her.
Lata she very awkward den avoid me ( like my p4 classmate ).
Haiz,the whole class is lucky except me.
Once i leave this school,i wun feel so lonely anymore.
I am ill-treated and tormented by my classmates.
I cannot take it anymore.
The only true ppl to me are Koh Siong,Wei Yang,Ji Yu,Xun Qiang,Ridhwan and dats all
SC treats me as a unfun person with no sense of humour. =.=
I feel left out from the rest of the class.
There is no sense of camaraderie ( a sense of belonging ) between me and them...
God,help me please.
I want to throw a coin into the river,make a wish,and when i wake up,it will come true.
I wish i could go back to when i was born,and i wish i could alter time into my family had not enough money to pay for my life and death surgery and i died.
Then all these would'nt happen.
I know I'm being an emo maniac,but it is the only way to escape my nightmares.
I'm a self-centered ( self-fish ), ego-centric ( self-fish) and superficial ( shallow attitude ).
with no hope in a future career,job,relationship WHATEVER.
I'm a failure,stuntman cannot cos i dun parkour and dun risk life.
Vet cannot cos my bio grades unstable.
TV crew / actor cannot cos i camera shy.
everything cannot.
Please sum1,hire sum1 to come and kill me.
That sum1 wun go to jail,cos this is an evidence that i asked sum1 to kill me.
Pls come and find me in Jurong Area near Gek Poh shopping centre ( singapore )
to take my life and kill my misery,thank you brave killing muderous stranger.
I shall thank you for ending my miserable life.
I really feel like crying but i can't and bottle my feelings up....
Labels: Stressed Out
