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Sunday, April 12, 2009
Was called an emo by many.
At this rate, I really would be one.
Already emo-ed to a point of no return liao.
Emo - happy - Emo - happy.
JUST CANNOT TAKE THE SWINGS OF LIFE ANY LONGER.
Hopefully I just get hit by a car or stabbed by an idiot.
Den coma or more hopefully, DIE.
I'm no longer able to control my emotions.
I got rejected again just today on my 2nd time asking her.
I started thinking, and these 3 guys in my head gave me the answer
.Blonde : Maybe you ain't as hot as me?
Spiky hair dude : Maybe you just ain't sweet enough
Moustache guy : Maybe you are just plain WEIRD!! Stay away you weirdo.
But the 3 of friends came to a conclusion, and they asked a representative to answer me.
At this rate, I really would be one.
Already emo-ed to a point of no return liao.
Emo - happy - Emo - happy.
JUST CANNOT TAKE THE SWINGS OF LIFE ANY LONGER.
Hopefully I just get hit by a car or stabbed by an idiot.
Den coma or more hopefully, DIE.
I'm no longer able to control my emotions.
I got rejected again just today on my 2nd time asking her.
I started thinking, and these 3 guys in my head gave me the answer
.Blonde : Maybe you ain't as hot as me?Spiky hair dude : Maybe you just ain't sweet enough
Moustache guy : Maybe you are just plain WEIRD!! Stay away you weirdo.
But the 3 of friends came to a conclusion, and they asked a representative to answer me.
Blonde2 : YOU ain't cool, YOU ain't hot, YOU ain't wise and you are just a confused weirdo.
Blonde2 : But things can change with actions, what are YOU going to do about it?
Puppet : ..........
Puppet : Just shut up and live life quietly like me. ( Thats why I have no mouth )
Some how I wish I was in that photo, resting peacefully at the beach with no stress at all.
Life in that picture appears so peaceful.
Hope is no longer part of my vocabulary, my dictionary and my life.
Take my bottle of feelings and compile it into a book, its worth a billion pages and more.
Drop it on your head and you are dead
Throw it in the sea and it will turn bloody black
YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH PRESSURE I'M UNDER FOR 15YEARS
I am so stressed and sick that I fall sick easily and I am just freaking tired of everything.
A wish to take a break from school, a long term break, not short term.
A break WITHOUT CCAs or REMEDIAL.
I just want some alone time, some time to rest and be refreshed.
Never thought band would be so stress.
Band is about music
Music is about compassion
Compassion is about how you express it.
Expression is a personal feeling, with no rhythm to it.
BUT.
PEOPLE INSIST THAT MUSIC FOLLOWS A RHYTHM.
My rhythm in life? PRESTO, or even faster.
Sickening isn't it?
I thought band would be slacked for awhile ( not forever of course )
after SYF, but it ain't over.
List of activities to confirm my "path to hell and beyong"
Passing Out Parade ( POP )
Teaching theory ( which I'm sick of ) and teaching Jesslyn ( Sickening nonetheless )
National Day ( Just crap this school activity and buy 1337 seats at Marina for NDP )
Paragon ( COME ON, DUN THIS MALL GET SICK OF US AFTER 7 YEARS? )
HONG KONG COMPETITION ( Dude, I'm sick of a life of silvers, dun wan another )
Can't wait to pass out
Aishah did not teach me how to teach others. People think I have more experience in teaching my juniors, but they are just 100% wrong. I could not scold, I could not punish, my actions just make people laugh which makes me upset when I want to uphold standards and discipline of WWCB. And it pisses me off to hear ppl call WWCB as Westwood Chi Bai.
The real CB is them.
I just want someone willing to teach me how to teach others, and life would be so much simpler.
My method of teaching my juniors is what caused the band to get a silver.
I THEREFORE SINCERELY APOLOGISE ON MY PART OF EUPHONIUM SECTION OF
WESTWOOD CONCERT BAND
I am sorry for my misleading actions which consequently caused us the silver.
I am sorry, my dear euphonium section for not being a good section leader.
I am sorry for everything that I have done to disappoint the entire band.
I, as a section leader, have not put my 100% in doing my duties. I am not a good role model to follow.
I sincerely apologise to Concert Band of
WESTWOOD SECONDARY SCHOOL.
P.S : To section leaders of 2010 and 2011, do not follow my footsteps. It will cause the total destruction of the section.
I am sorry Aishah, for not making the section as good as what you want it to be. You have made the wrong choice for your 2008-2010 section leader.