Thε Expløsiøи
Monday, April 20, 2009
SAZLINA
SHI YING
YI WEN
CRYSTAL
RAYMOND
EELEEN
I'M GONNA KILL U ALL FOR NOT DANCING
DURING BAND CAMP!!!
MADE ME INTO SUCH A TOTAL EMBARASSMENT
sec3 like me lose face for the performance....
meow!!! Whoops, I mean RAWR!!!!!
HEADS WILL ROLL.
I'M GONNA KILL YOU!!!!
( Literally or sarcasticly, find out yourself )
[ If your good friend is gone, it could be me, BWAHAHAHAHA ]
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Was called an emo by many.
At this rate, I really would be one.
Already emo-ed to a point of no return liao.
Emo - happy - Emo - happy.
JUST CANNOT TAKE THE SWINGS OF LIFE ANY LONGER.
Hopefully I just get hit by a car or stabbed by an idiot.
Den coma or more hopefully, DIE.
I'm no longer able to control my emotions.
I got rejected again just today on my 2nd time asking her.
I started thinking, and these 3 guys in my head gave me the answer
.Blonde : Maybe you ain't as hot as me?
Spiky hair dude : Maybe you just ain't sweet enough
Moustache guy : Maybe you are just plain WEIRD!! Stay away you weirdo.
But the 3 of friends came to a conclusion, and they asked a representative to answer me.
At this rate, I really would be one.
Already emo-ed to a point of no return liao.
Emo - happy - Emo - happy.
JUST CANNOT TAKE THE SWINGS OF LIFE ANY LONGER.
Hopefully I just get hit by a car or stabbed by an idiot.
Den coma or more hopefully, DIE.
I'm no longer able to control my emotions.
I got rejected again just today on my 2nd time asking her.
I started thinking, and these 3 guys in my head gave me the answer
.Blonde : Maybe you ain't as hot as me?Spiky hair dude : Maybe you just ain't sweet enough
Moustache guy : Maybe you are just plain WEIRD!! Stay away you weirdo.
But the 3 of friends came to a conclusion, and they asked a representative to answer me.
Blonde2 : YOU ain't cool, YOU ain't hot, YOU ain't wise and you are just a confused weirdo.
Blonde2 : But things can change with actions, what are YOU going to do about it?
Puppet : ..........
Puppet : Just shut up and live life quietly like me. ( Thats why I have no mouth )
Some how I wish I was in that photo, resting peacefully at the beach with no stress at all.
Life in that picture appears so peaceful.
Hope is no longer part of my vocabulary, my dictionary and my life.
Take my bottle of feelings and compile it into a book, its worth a billion pages and more.
Drop it on your head and you are dead
Throw it in the sea and it will turn bloody black
YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH PRESSURE I'M UNDER FOR 15YEARS
I am so stressed and sick that I fall sick easily and I am just freaking tired of everything.
A wish to take a break from school, a long term break, not short term.
A break WITHOUT CCAs or REMEDIAL.
I just want some alone time, some time to rest and be refreshed.
Never thought band would be so stress.
Band is about music
Music is about compassion
Compassion is about how you express it.
Expression is a personal feeling, with no rhythm to it.
BUT.
PEOPLE INSIST THAT MUSIC FOLLOWS A RHYTHM.
My rhythm in life? PRESTO, or even faster.
Sickening isn't it?
I thought band would be slacked for awhile ( not forever of course )
after SYF, but it ain't over.
List of activities to confirm my "path to hell and beyong"
Passing Out Parade ( POP )
Teaching theory ( which I'm sick of ) and teaching Jesslyn ( Sickening nonetheless )
National Day ( Just crap this school activity and buy 1337 seats at Marina for NDP )
Paragon ( COME ON, DUN THIS MALL GET SICK OF US AFTER 7 YEARS? )
HONG KONG COMPETITION ( Dude, I'm sick of a life of silvers, dun wan another )
Can't wait to pass out
Aishah did not teach me how to teach others. People think I have more experience in teaching my juniors, but they are just 100% wrong. I could not scold, I could not punish, my actions just make people laugh which makes me upset when I want to uphold standards and discipline of WWCB. And it pisses me off to hear ppl call WWCB as Westwood Chi Bai.
The real CB is them.
I just want someone willing to teach me how to teach others, and life would be so much simpler.
My method of teaching my juniors is what caused the band to get a silver.
I THEREFORE SINCERELY APOLOGISE ON MY PART OF EUPHONIUM SECTION OF
WESTWOOD CONCERT BAND
I am sorry for my misleading actions which consequently caused us the silver.
I am sorry, my dear euphonium section for not being a good section leader.
I am sorry for everything that I have done to disappoint the entire band.
I, as a section leader, have not put my 100% in doing my duties. I am not a good role model to follow.
I sincerely apologise to Concert Band of
WESTWOOD SECONDARY SCHOOL.
P.S : To section leaders of 2010 and 2011, do not follow my footsteps. It will cause the total destruction of the section.
I am sorry Aishah, for not making the section as good as what you want it to be. You have made the wrong choice for your 2008-2010 section leader.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Thursday's cross-country was pretty ok
For 4.5km, I did not feel tired, just that my legs burnt and the rubber soles of my shoe melted away. ( Literally )
Went home, dropped dead on my bed.
GOOD FRIDAY!! YA RIGHT
Went to pray to my caring grandmama, she took care of me when i was 3~7 years old.
Reunited with my long lost cousins again =P
Went bowling with them and a puddle of stupidity took place.
Practicising for my throw, I was swinging the ball to gain momentum.
My brother put a second ball behind and i whacked it.
My momentum stopped and the energy channelled through my veins like nobody's business.
Then my hand cramp and i dropped on the floor in a state of shock ( seriously )
My score then plummeted for the next 2 games. DAMN HIM!!
Since the alley had a speed measurement gauge, I played around.
I pushed a ball for which seemingly seems to be 1km/h, it stopped in the middle of the lane..
We laughed like crap and I have the photo in my handphone.
Saturday, BAND.
Crap Jesslyn, she could not learn as fast as the other sec 2 and she forgottened her marches.
Tired, fell asleep during sectionals. Got heap loads of f***ing by Conductor.
seriously bad mood liao.
Went to buy mouthpiece after that, got a Denis Wick SM5.
Went to Wheellock Place, then Paragon.
Bought things, felt embarassed as i dressed like an uncle
Reply to those who tried to comfort me.
Aishah, life is depressing, not just me. U WERE DEPRESSED TOO WHEN U WENT TO "MI".
Anyways, there is the great depression in history, there is no great happiness yet.
Iffa, thanks but no thanks, 2nd place is not an option for me.
For 4.5km, I did not feel tired, just that my legs burnt and the rubber soles of my shoe melted away. ( Literally )
Went home, dropped dead on my bed.
GOOD FRIDAY!! YA RIGHT
Went to pray to my caring grandmama, she took care of me when i was 3~7 years old.
Reunited with my long lost cousins again =P
Went bowling with them and a puddle of stupidity took place.
Practicising for my throw, I was swinging the ball to gain momentum.
My brother put a second ball behind and i whacked it.
My momentum stopped and the energy channelled through my veins like nobody's business.
Then my hand cramp and i dropped on the floor in a state of shock ( seriously )
My score then plummeted for the next 2 games. DAMN HIM!!
Since the alley had a speed measurement gauge, I played around.
I pushed a ball for which seemingly seems to be 1km/h, it stopped in the middle of the lane..
We laughed like crap and I have the photo in my handphone.
Saturday, BAND.
Crap Jesslyn, she could not learn as fast as the other sec 2 and she forgottened her marches.
Tired, fell asleep during sectionals. Got heap loads of f***ing by Conductor.
seriously bad mood liao.
Went to buy mouthpiece after that, got a Denis Wick SM5.
Went to Wheellock Place, then Paragon.
Bought things, felt embarassed as i dressed like an uncle
Reply to those who tried to comfort me.
Aishah, life is depressing, not just me. U WERE DEPRESSED TOO WHEN U WENT TO "MI".
Anyways, there is the great depression in history, there is no great happiness yet.
Iffa, thanks but no thanks, 2nd place is not an option for me.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
People like me say a heart of stone ain't so bad.
It is a life of silvers that is worse.
Never in my life have I achieve 1st, only 2nd and beyond.
Demoralised beyond hope, I am only awaken to life by hate and despair.
My face says a million words, but my emotions are says a billion.
Beyond my cheer and hopes is a long dead soul hiding in the shadow of my closet.
Seems pretty emo to most, but it is full of meaning.
HAPPINESS and other emotions are just colours of life.
WHO ARE THEY, the people, to discriminate others like me?
Heartbroken over and over again, never accepted by a girl I like from primary sch till now.
Hope, is what I traded to the devil, in exchange for hate, misery, arrogance and PRADA
( The devil wears prada =D )
I have officially taken the place of old Ridhwan, as the REJECTED FOOL.
While Ridhwan has taken the place of Romeo in the story of Romeo and Juliet.
Instant rejection is what a girl must do if they do not accept a boy.
But a girl made me wait and wait, waiting for her answer and reply.
At this rate, she would reply me only when I'm underground, in a coffin.
Speaking of life of silvers,
I was referring to SYF.
I could not be as smart as KohSiong
I could not be as cool and funny as Ji Yu and SeahCheng
I could not even be the most hated classmate.
What am I?
A SECOND PLACE, SILVER WINNING, LOSER IN LIFE !!!